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Kirie Pedersen's avatar

So much of your essay resonates, River, but this is the one that stays: "books probably kept me alive as a child and teenager." I too had a fraught childhood, and encountered bullies particularly in middle school. One day at fifteen I set off drinking, overdosed on drugs, and arranged my body for my parents to find. They hauled me from the psych ward where I detoxed in restraints to our remote rural cabin, and I rediscovered "Portrait fo the Artist as a Young Man" (could a girl be an artist? The teachers and other kids told me no!) and then Ulysses. I threw myself once again into books and journals, which I devoured and which saved me in grade school. To this day, my weekly delivery on the Bookmobile that serves this remote area is my drug of choice.

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Jane Ratcliffe's avatar

Oh, Kirie!! I'm so glad your parents found you and that you then re-found books! Kisses to your big, sensitive heart. This world is not easy. I'm so glad you have your weekly Bookmobile delivery!! ❤️

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River Selby (they/them)'s avatar

Kirie, I love this so much! Ulysses is one of my absolute favorite books. I am so glad you survived, so glad you're here- so glad we're both here, reading and writing <3.

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Kirie Pedersen's avatar

Isn't that true, River, that "we're both here, reading and writing," some of the great joys.

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anne richardson's avatar

such a tender interview. thank you for sharing your story River and the reminder to be open to the mystery. and Edna is a beauty!

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Jane Ratcliffe's avatar

So happy you enjoyed it, Anne. And I knooooow! Edna! Swoon!

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River Selby (they/them)'s avatar

Thank you so much, Anne! <3

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Caitlin Faas's avatar

I am a paid subscriber to both of you, so it was so pleasant to see this interview! :)

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Jane Ratcliffe's avatar

That's so lovely! Thank you, Caitlin!!

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River Selby (they/them)'s avatar

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ this made me so happy!!

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Kate's avatar

Love this! Thank you!

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Jane Ratcliffe's avatar

Yay! I'm so glad! ❤️

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Constellations In Her Bones's avatar

Beautiful 💫💛🐈‍⬛🐾🌿

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Jane Ratcliffe's avatar

So happy you enjoyed it, Constellations! ❤️

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Constellations In Her Bones's avatar

Hi Jane! Missed this. Truly I do. 💛

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Clare Egan's avatar

Loved this conversation. The role of mystery in creative work (& bringing that work into the world) really struck me. It's one of the hardest aspects of this "career" (lol) but I suppose, it's also part of the magic.

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Jane Ratcliffe's avatar

Yes to all of this, Clare! And I'm so glad you enjoyed the interview!

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